Kira Stallworth
Ill Wills
I thought this story would last,
but now it’s the past— a dimmed light,
the timing was wrong,
the feeling was right.
The wounds of a broken heart,
they reopen sometimes,
it’s up to us to figure out,
how to perfect a slant rhyme.
Some people wouldn’t wish you well,
but I have no ill wills,
I hope you get better,
I hope you stopped popping pills.
No one should have to feel,
the way you made me feel,
no one should have to feel,
the way those girls made you heal.
I hope someone fixes what’s broken,
& those possessed feelings die,
I hope you suppress depression,
& anxiety doesn’t blow your high.
I hope you’re not afraid,
to open up from day to day,
I hope your flower seeds blossom,
& I sincerely hope you’re okay.
If I could have it my way,
we would never feel sorrow placed,
on the face of our frowns,
because broken cries do have a taste.
I hope you regain power,
I hope your doubt finally ends,
I hope you find someone— as did I,
to make you believe in love again.
Kira Stallworth
So Now You Love Me
So now you love me,
Inch by inch and touch by touch,
spraying your ocean of affection,
and you care about me so much.
But how can you love me,
so sure? so soon?
how can you declare love for me,
before the sky reaches the moon?
How can you be so affectionate?
you shower me with your love,
you speak to me in passions,
& put me on cloud nine with the doves.
But push comes to shove,
once the issues arise,
you forbid me from storming out,
until you expel the rage that lies.
I used to cry myself to sleep,
when I had fears with other guys,
but you become restless,
until the tears stop falling from my eyes.
You say I’m your whole world,
and I alleviate your pain,
you say I’m your sunshine,
in the dreariness of the rain.
But I never understood,
your commitment so pure,
never have I ever believed,
a man could feel this way before.
I thought I could never trust,
I was afraid to love again,
yet you greet me with open arms,
and I wonder “where have you been”?
A man I’ve always dreamed of,
who fulfills all of my needs,
who treats me like a princess,
and makes me feel like royalty.
As much as I’m living a dream,
I’ve never been so afraid,
if I cross my heart and hope to die,
I don’t want to land in my grave.
Oh, how I want to give you everything,
I feel sorrow in making you wait,
you are begging for my love in return,
and I fear of making a treacherous mistake.
Who is to say you,
will not leave me one day?
you don’t make me doubt you,
but my conscience refuses to lay.
I have fear of abandonment,
I weep at the idea of infidelity,
but you always reassure me,
you will meld any broken melody.
I have been tainted by the past,
but your history does not stop you,
I respect your admiration,
and the bravery in your love, too.
I love everything about you,
yet I am not ready to love entirely,
my feelings are the ultimate paradox,
yet you still decide to admire me.
You can see all of my flaws,
but choose to only view the light,
you take all my imperfections,
and believe them to be bright.
I already thanked God for you,
my angel from above,
because I’m just another girl,
who doesn’t know the meaning of love.
I stand with uncertainty,
but you proudly cuff me,
I am beginning to believe...
so now you love me.
About Kira
Kira Stallworth is currently a junior at Holy Family University, and an English-Secondary education major. She is also a member of the HFU Dance Team, a member of HFU’s Aspiring Educators, and a dance teacher at Strength & Grace Dance Academy. She hopes to become an author and life changing teacher.