Next Stop: Sapporo
I don’t know how to tell my grandma
I no longer believe in god. She’s
giving her photos away; dying.
The scrapbook saved for me is of
her three weeks in Japan with a man
(I think) she should’ve married.
We had great times dancing, she told me,
and great times in the tub.
Her face in these photos– the look
in his eyes– I see myself and my own love,
and close the book, stunned
by love in a brand new way. Never
have I seen her so happy in succession
or observed in her unconditional carelessness:
We had a fight one night, so I left the hotel;
so angry, so drunk, so lost.
Eight kids back home waited for her as she
posed beneath a giant Buddha. These photos
she kept secret, sacred. Her prized possessions
in my lap. I can whisper to her nothing of
Heaven. I think I know she’ll go
back to Japan if she can, and stay.
ALL THE FIRE HYDRANTS ARE THE COLOR OF PUBLIC SCHOOL HOTDOGS: TO GIRLS THAT READ JOHN KEATS AND CONNECT
That summer I cantered an old horse through fields
of sunflowers, boots wagging, boots
loose from their stirrups—his name? Was Scout.
I loved to bathe him, loved to brush
his caramel fur. He was broken decades ago. Was
old, was slow, yet weaved
through the maze of golden petals with ease.
He’s as close to flying as I’ll ever get, I thought,
even after the penultimate dream of my toes
kissing boughs, tracing treetops
like cops do to pavement corpses.
I have no idea if I slept or really saw, and worse!
It’s all a bit too Romantic.
As Romantic as being buried in Rome or believing in
soulmates. Telling secrets to butterflies.
Having a hunk of a man read to you before bed.
A nightingale taught me to love. Might’ve been
another dream. He was stark and ashen, a beak
aglow in the dark. I heard what Hell is
in his passionate crooning and ducked beneath
jagged Elmwoods that leapt like lions–left, right, then
stagnant. Reflecting on it makes me shudder. If my
chest were ripped open, I’d wager
my lover's head would be dancing inside my chest.
I sigh: At least I don’t clutch Rose Quartz.
My Tiger’s Eye instead.
ABOUT RAYNI
Rayni K. Wekluk is the author of Garbage City Poems. Her poetry and nonfiction is published in Folio, The Linden Review, Collision, 13th Floor Magazine, The Oakland Arts Review, and more. Primarily a poet, Wekluk will graduate in Fall of 2025 with a BFA in Creative Writing (Poetry) and a BA in English (CNF) from The University of Nebraska Omaha. She holds the honor of having served as a manuscript reviewer for the Ex Ophidia Press 2024 Richard Gabriel Rummonds Poetry Contest. Wekluk’s explores the human condition through a strong feminine lens within her work and hopes to write a play, as well as a full length collection of poetry, in the coming years.